Back to Normal


This past week has left me feeling like I’m coming out of a fog. The past couple months have been tough, and while things haven’t gotten any better on the job front, I’m not as depressed about it. I imagine the nice weather has helped with that – nothing like waking up to rain to kill any motivation to do anything.

I’ve also gotten out twice this week to go hiking – both time were so well needed. Being home so much is weird, and while I know that I should take advantage of the time to get outside, write more, and sleep in, I feel guilty whenever I do. I constantly have to remind myself that taking care of my body takes care of my mind, too.

I hope everyone has a great weekend, and I’ll leave you with some more beautiful photos from my hike on Monday!




Oh, and one from yesterday – the cottonwood is so bad here that in some places, it looks like it’s snowing!

There was so much cottonwood on the trails today it looked like snow. #allergies #hiking

Life on Instagram: Random Tidbits

After one of the longest breaks I’ve taken on the blog so far, I’m back with a renewed energy and focus. Job hunting is still going to take up the great majority of my time, and I can’t guarantee I’ll post often, but I’m starting to get excited about blogging again. So to honor that newfound energy, I thought I’d update you on what I’ve been up to lately when I’m not eyeballs deep in resumes, cover letters, and LinkedIn.


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I cut my finger really badly about a month ago while chopping parsley. Thankfully, no stitches needed – but my nail is growing out with a gash in it. Also thankful for bright nail polish to hide it. / A throwback to my college years – cranberry and vodkas. No, they were not both for me (though in college, they would have been). / Saw this while out hiking at Cougar Mountain. I was having a rough day, and it was just what I needed to see. / Took a quick trip one day to the beach to clear my brain. I’m trying to take advantage of that more often, since for years I didn’t live anywhere near water!


I’ve been on a bit of a cookbook tear lately. I’ve read two Barefoot Contessa books, a few Giada books, and I’m currently working my way through this one. So far, it’s a gorgeous book and great read! / My sweet tooth got the better of me one day, and I threw together some apple-crisp muffins. I only had enough ingredients to make 6, so they went fast (especially once D found them)! / Another book I read recently, and pretty quickly too. I think I read it over a couple hours? / The weather has been insanely nice so far this week, so I am determined to spend more time outside. I started off Monday with a hike near home. My legs are paying for it today, though!

Beach Hunter


While Seattle didn’t have much of a winter, I can definitely tell that spring is definitely here! I decided to take a short break from job applications to find a park in my new neighborhood. I’ve been craving some beach time, and even though it’s not beach weather yet, it was nice to get out by the water. This one is only a few minutes away from home, and when the sun is shining, it’s a great way to kill some time in the afternoon.



I ran across these two ducks while on a short hike around the park. They were a little too friendly – you could tell they are fed by park-goers all the time. Thankfully, they kept their distance and let me take a few photos before heading on my way!


By the time I was done with my short hike, the sun had faded away and storm clouds rolled in. I made a quick beeline for the car, and barely made it home before it started storming! Normally I don’t mind a little rain, but I had my camera with me and nowhere to hide it if it started pouring, so I had to cut my trip a little short. I can’t wait to head back there soon, hopefully with D, for a nice picnic or afternoon on the beach when it gets a little warmer outside.

I can’t wait to find more great parks in the area. This was a great place to start, though!

Positivity is Key


(Found this happy little rock in a tree while I was on a hike a couple weeks ago.)

If you were to ask me right now if I’m happy, I’d say it’s complicated.

Leaving teaching is something that still fills me with doubt, but I’m working through it. I have a better idea of where I want my career path to go, and that helps. I don’t have a job yet, but I have a direction, which is better than where I was even a week ago. I’m hopeful that things will get better from here. I have no choice but being hopeful.

I’ve also been getting outside more, which always makes me feel more at peace. The hiking trails near my apartment are great, and the weather has been amazing for the most part. It’s so nice to be able to get out in nature without having to drive somewhere first. Now, if it would just warm up and stop raining, I could get out there today. It probably won’t happen, though – I’m still trying to kick a headache I’ve had since Saturday (thanks, Aunt Flo).

In addition to reading more, I also started baking more often. I know that cupcakes and brownies aren’t the best things to eat, but baking is one of the few things that can calm me when I’m having a rough day. The precision and attention that baking requires keeps my mind busy and distracted, and the end result usually tastes pretty damn good too. :-)

Blogging is still taking a backseat to everything else at the moment, but I’m hoping that it won’t be this way for much longer. I miss sharing what’s going on in my life here. Unfortunately, lately it’s been days on end with the same thing – and no one (not even me) cares about reading the same whiny shit about sweatpants, job applications, and how much HGTV I’ve been watching lately (hint: it’s a lot).

Hopefully you’ll all still be around when I get back to writing more often, but for now, it’s time to take a break…and a nap.

What I’ve Been Reading Lately


For the past few months, I’ve been spending the bulk of my time job hunting and preparing to teach classes I ended up not actually teaching. In my spare time, though, I made a serious effort to get back into reading for pleasure, since it’s something I don’t do very often when I’m teaching. Something about starting at student essays for three hours just kills my desire to keep reading, even if it’s for fun. ;-)

After getting a library subscription, I discovered that our local library does digital books. It’s amazing because I don’t have to find a library that has the book I want, and the waiting list for digital books is a lot better than physical ones. Even though I had to wait almost a month for some of them, I had plenty to read and do while I waited. So without further ado, here’s what I’ve been reading lately!

1. How to Be Parisian Wherever You Are: Love, Style, and Bad Habits by Anne Berest, Audrey Diwan, Caroline de Maigret, and Sophie Mas

This book was such a fun read! It was part guidebook, part picture book – which is great if you’re not up for a serious read. I enjoyed reading about fashion, food, parenting, love, and life from four different Parisian women. It’s definitely a book I will buy in the future, if only for the wonderful photos and graphics throughout. Highly recommended if you’re as obsessed with Paris as I am.

2. Parisian Chic: A Style Guide by Ines de la Fressange

The only physical book I could get my hands on was this one, and it was well worth waiting a few days for it to get shipped in from a different library! This is another book I will definitely buy for my collection someday, and the book itself is about as chic as the advice within it! This is also a mix of amazing photos, quirky illustrations from Ines de la Fressange, and amazing advice. It’s like having a much cooler older sister or aunt giving you advice. She’s honest, but keeps most of her advice pretty universal and basic. There is also an entire section devoted to her favorite shops (many of which are online now), which reads like a secret guide for where the real Parisiennes go! She also has a YouTube series she did with Roger Vivier, where she shows us around many of the stores mentioned in the book (if you can handle subtitles). I enjoy watching them because it reminds me that I should get back into practice with my French skills (and that I can understand her more than I thought). Also highly recommended for the French-obsessed, and for the discerning shopper.

3. #GIRLBOSS by Sophie Amoruso

Okay, so I’m going to admit this right off the bat – I didn’t finish this book. I think I made it about halfway through before moving on to something else. Part of this might have been because we moved in the middle of me reading it, but honestly, it wasn’t for me. I’ve been hearing great things about this book from just about everyone I talk to or read about online. At the beginning, it seemed like a great story from a woman who is about my age, and who came up during a time when a “traditional” career path no longer existed for many people who couldn’t afford (or didn’t want to go to) college. She made her own way in spite of not having the right education or trust fund parents – and that’s something many people my age can relate to.

However, I think this book is better suited to women about a decade younger than me – for me, it was a bit “yeah, yeah, I’ve heard all this before.” I would highly recommend this book to anyone who is just graduating from high school or college, as a nice reminder that the paths they are about to take don’t have to be boring and traditional ones. Since we’re getting to that time of year, I’d totally give this as a graduation present. Sure, Amoruso’s career is obviously more the exception than the norm, but her sentiment is still great for young women to hear. I just think it fell on deaf ears in my case. I might try to pick it up and finish it this week, if I can renew it online.

4. Yes Please by Amy Poehler

This is the most recent book I’ve read, and I think I blew through it in only a few days. I know, I probably could have read the whole thing in one evening, but I have a husband who thinks my reading alone for hours on end is offensive and weird. Someday I’ll work on getting him over that, but until then, I’m lucky if I can swing an hour alone at a time. ;-)

Anyway, this book was a great read! In the past, I’ve enjoyed reading books from Tina Fey, Mindy Kaling, and Chelsea Handler, so I knew this would be right in my wheel-house. Sure, Poehler’s funny and all, but this book is also a great reminder that as women we have help each other out in rough times. Her message is very much that of a normal woman, raising two kids while trying to juggle her career, friendships, love, and happiness. At a somewhat turbulent time in my life, it was great to hear from someone else who has also been through rough times and gotten through it (she wrote the book while in the middle of her divorce from Will Arnett). Though I don’t think this book would work for the #GIRLBOSS crowd, it would make a great gift for someone more my own age or older – especially those who also juggle the million things most women do. Her mantra of “Good for you, not for me” is one I think most women can relate to and should hear more often.


I’ve had a lot of fun getting back into the habit of reading again, and can’t wait to start a new book (though I have no idea which one).

If you have any suggestions, I’d totally appreciate you leaving it in the comments!

Life on Instagram: Moving…again!


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1. Not long after I took those lovely photos of my apartment, we packed it all up and moved again. My husband got a job closer to Seattle, and since I had just heard I wasn’t working anymore, it made no sense to stay an hour-plus drive from where D works – the commute was killing him. I was really sad to leave this apartment, since it was the first one I chose and decorated purely on my own. Almost half the time I lived there I was alone, and I’m going to miss my tiny sanctuary. I am, however, very excited to have separate bathrooms again. Sharing a bathroom any longer would have ruined our marriage. ;-)

2. This was by far the fastest move we’ve ever done. From start to finish, moving the furniture only took about 3 hours (including the almost 45 minute drive), thanks to my brother in law helping with the heavy lifting. It rained the entire time, so it was also the messiest move we’ve ever done. Our mattress is still streaked with dirt from being dropped. We’ve been here almost a month now, and still adjusting to having so much more space. Everything feels half empty now.

3. One of the biggest selling points with this apartment is the location. This photo was taken from our living room. Since the apartment is built on a steep hill, it feels way more secluded than it is. Also, just beyond that hill is a pretty nice hiking trail. It’s great to finally live close within walking distance of great trails, which is the only thing keeping me sane right now!

4. It has taken almost a month, but things are finally starting to feel moved in. Not having a job has made decorating extremely difficult, since I don’t have a lot of stuff anymore and we have a LOT of blank walls. This place doesn’t feel like home at all yet, but we’re getting there in small ways.

This last move was a bittersweet one for me. Part of me really loved that last apartment – it was the first place I chose myself, and I felt reflected my style more than anywhere else I’ve lived. I didn’t have to compromise for what someone else wanted, and got to decorate it however I felt worked for me. It was a lot more feminine and modern than any other apartment we’ve lived in, and I miss that already. I’m sure I’ll work more of that into our current place, once I have the budget to do so. This is also the first apartment I’ve lived in where they say I can paint, so I might be experimenting with that soon (since tan walls are the WORST). Sure, they’re going to charge me to paint it back when we move, but I’m willing to cough that up not to have shitty tan walls anymore!

Of course, there are things I like about our new place. The location is much better, since it’s only about 20 minutes from Seattle, instead of an hour. We’re also a lot closer to the water, which I’m sure will be a huge plus in the summer months. I’m also closer to better shopping, hiking, and other fun stuff. I also have more counter space now than I’ve ever had, so cooking has been a LOT easier than in the past!

I know I haven’t shown you much of the apartment yet, but I will once things are less “in transition.” I have a lot of great ideas for this space…I just need the budget to go do them!

Tough Goodbyes


Today was supposed to be my first day back to teaching in almost four months. I was excited to be back in the classroom, and eager to meet a new batch of students. I had two classes prepared and ready to go.

Unfortunately, that isn’t going to happen.

The college I worked for contacted me right before we moved to tell me that they were taking away one of my classes to give to another teacher. I wasn’t happy about it, but it wasn’t the end of the world – I still had one class left. Right after we moved, they told me they gave away the other class. Since this happened rather suddenly and without warning, I was devastated.

Now I’m back to square one. I’ve spent the past few months applying to dozens of teaching positions, and other jobs within the college systems here. I have woken up every morning to an inbox full of politely written rejection letters, which I can tell you is not the best way to start the day. I’ve written so many cover letters that they’re starting to blur together. I also think I’ve applied to so many positions that I fear that I applied to some of them twice (sorry if I did that). It’s hard work trying to find work, and it can wear down even the most thick-skinned person. While I’ve always struggled to keep my career afloat, this is different.

After a lot of careful thought, friendly advice, and sleepless nights, I’ve come to a very tough decision:

I am leaving the teaching profession.

It’s tough for me to admit this, but it’s time for me to move on. I gave teaching 11 years of my life, and I truly mean my whole life. Teaching often meant sacrificing friends, family, vacations, and time for myself. I’m 31 years old and in no position to buy a house, have children, or pay off my student loans – all things I would have expected to have accomplished by now. I’ve read more books in the past three months than I have in the past 10 years, and didn’t realize until now how much I missed that. While the stress of not having a new job keeps me up at night, it’s nothing compared to the years of anxiety, not knowing if I’d make enough to pay rent every few months. It’s time for me to choose another path – one that is more stable and allows me to have a life outside of work. I can’t continue to risk my physical and mental health on a promise that never came to fruition. I want to be excited to wake up in the morning and head to work, something I haven’t felt in years.

This is a decision I didn’t make lightly, and I promise it’s not an angry reaction to this recent layoff. I’ve been struggling with this decision for years. This blog exists because I was unhappy in my career, and needed an outlet. Two years ago, I even made a new year’s resolution on the blog to explore other career options, whether it be blogging, writing professionally, editing, or something else. I knew even back then that things were bad, but since I was working consistently, I didn’t feel ready to let go quite yet. Now I do.

I don’t know what the future holds for me, which is scary given I’m an over-planner. Part of me wants to go back to school, but I don’t know if I can handle another round of school, and another pile of debt I may never pay off. I started looking into careers outside of teaching, and while many of the positions I’ve applied for look interesting, I still feel very much like a fish out of water. Breaking into a new industry is hard, especially when you feel over/under qualified and too old. Making money as a blogger would be great, which I assume is as simple as finding a unicorn whose tears are made of money.

So for now, I’m overwhelmed and terrified…but I’m also hopeful and excited to see what the future has in store for me. I’m trying to stay positive, which isn’t always easy, but I’m trying.

For those of you who read my blog, thank you for sticking with me through a very long post! For those of you who write the blogs I read, thank you for the distraction during such a rough time. This community of bloggers keeps me sane, it really does – and I can’t imagine where I’d be without you.

And if you happen to know anyone in the Seattle area who’d like to hire a former English professor, let me know. :-)